treat me

watch this

i really love these watches!

oh ya, by the way. Trick or Treat! Happy Halloween :)

The Climb Team's havin' a party. In school (because we are smuggers la) but nonetheless it think it will be fun especially everyone has been so uptight over school and desperately looking towards doing something fun

okays work first play later. and i have to quit sleeping late & waking up late for 8.30am!

revising my korean

i have a bi poster waiting to be delivered to me from Korea.
kamsahapnida ji-niao sshi!
pogoshiptagu...
palli toro wa!

thank you ms. janelle. miss you..come back quick!

take me as i am

生 命 中，不 断 地 有 人 离 开 或 进 入。
于 是，看 见 的 ，看 不 见 的；记 住 的 ，遗 忘 了。

生 命 中 ，不 断 地 有 得 到 和 失 落 。
于 是，看 不 见 的 ，看 见 了；遗 忘 了，记 住 了。

然 而 ，看 不 见 的 ，是 不 是 就 等 于 不 存 在？
记 住 的 ，是 不 是 永 远 不 会 消 失？

it is the one liner thats said
that reduced all that i stand for to nothing
and makes me afraid of a
deja vu.

emo weather.

2 days of sleeping at 2am and waking for 8.30am class even on a saturday is a pain. i woke at 7am yesterday thinking im so screwed cos i'd never make it to school in time because i kept thinking i have to be in school at 8am. so i only have 1hour to bath getready and go to school. 15mins to get ready (and that's a record time), 1st thing i did was to stretch my hands out to hail for a cab to get me to the 23bus stop which can bring me to school in half an hour. on the cab, the auntie ask me i have 8am class is it? then i was like... hmm..sounds wrong.. "no, its 8.30 class". then i look at my watch which says 7.30am and i have 1 hour to get to school! $3.90 poorer, i got to sch by 8am after getting down from the cab to take 23.

a long day of class plus 2 long meetings. i went home after dining with them, most of us were too tired to stay and do work. so wz is the only one to continue his record of sleeping over in school. 6th night already?

it's pouring outside now.
chuah hae.

kimchi ramyeom mogok le?

gelare day

today apple & i were part of ganann's pseudo exchange life. and today is Gelare's Day @ PS! it's been so long we've had ice-cream together =) 2 ice cream waffles, bananasplit with chocolate overload, honey malt crunch, apple pie crunch and swiss caramel choc.












finished in 15minutes.

hansel and gretel

its like being hansel and gretel. casting crumbs on the floor, hoping that it would lead them back home again. casted till there were none left, left lost, high and dry.

mayday in shanghai

fi & man just had to call me while they are having fun during their holiday at Shanghai. i thought i connected to their stupid voicemail machine but it turned out to be fi singing to mayday in cos they were @ KTV singing to MayDay. okay.. at least i am missed. & here's a pic of us :)

i am register no. 4

There are 16 letters in your name.Those 16 letters total to 94There are 8 vowels and 8 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.
The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5
A Soul Urge number of 5 means: The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.
In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.
You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8
An Inner Dream number of 8 means: You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

from yieng's

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

ROB

Phuong vs Manchi. Check out Phuong's muscles.

Mervyn vs Tiny. Check out Mervyn's face.

Hard gays in action.

So happy together part 1.

So happy together part 2

The authentic so happy together couple.

Heng reminds me of 大口仔.

But of course 大口仔 cuter.

Different definitions of drunk look.

Heng, Phuong, Dexter's definition: Smile at camera and look good

Terence's definition: Stick out tongue

Peishan's definition: Not looking at camera

Calvin, Weizhong, Apple's definition: Tilt head sideways and look gong

Neh and Manchi's definition: Smaller eyes

Ooooh but we all love Mervyn's definition.

word for word from the Climb Team's Blog

Week 10

the time has come for all of us to feel that there should be more than 24hours in a day. so at least we have time to do everything we need to do without compromising on sleep.

but im glad im went for the family gathering yesterday cos the little ones were really sweet to their dear old jiejie. i was greeted by the bunch of them, after which they promptly served me with cake (from Swissbake!). I was served twice, 1st by Nat&Evangeline then Dillion gave me another. how can anyone resist such sweet gestures, so 2 cakes went down my tummy. oh sweet little ones!

musik ::
norah jones:: don't know why

Till I hear it from you

a nice song from the 90's.
we should catch the movie as well - Empire Records.
"i dont wanna take advice from fools
i just figured everything is cool
until i hear it from you..."

maybe i.

friends

ganann is so funny. (read: her blog) her optimism is infectious.

and i think i'm really blessed to have these people around me in school. its not just me who feel it but hL too. now its not just go school for classes, projects then home. but i have people to mug with, hang out with, go shopping with, watch movie with, eat with, have fun with, make fun of, have 'parties', talk to about serious stuff, about not so serious... things which make u feel anchored.

now for some late saturday night entertainment after a day of projects/mugging. off to roomful of blues!

defense mechanism

so maybe an ego bruise is much harder to handle.

"And when she breaks down and makes a sound
You never hear her the way that I do
And when she says she wants someone to love
I hope you know she doesn’t mean you"

howie day :: she says

part timing

as it comes nearer to the weekend, most people would feel happier. for us, there's no difference. worse still, it reminds us of the impending deadline. i've never felt more screwed for a project before.

upon my grouching that apple and i are going to be part-time friend already, wz's reply was
"you are also full time tutor, part time friend
(apple is full time ahem, part time friend
wz is also full time ahem, part time friend)
as long as our part time part time same time
we are still friends..."

hahaha, finally he says something that actually kind of witty.

acrojunkies

the current exco 'surprised' the retired fogies with a 'thanks' cake as a token of appreciate. thank u for the sweet gesture with special mentions to (s)mellie for baking the cake. from left: roy apple me and tiny.



we love food & our acrojunkie singlets!

like the way tiny and i look like spokesperson for the Climb Team with our Acrojunkie singlets. & the cakex12 made it all the more yummy, so we couldnt resist taking a picture with it. though tiny is stoney and whiny (though lesser now, ever since his mind is filled with beautiful thoughts of his new partner and possibilities of microminis future), he's been such a dear friend - there with encouragements and nice things to say when things werent so nice. in friends, u find parts of urself in them. like how we like to idle and windowshop, watch 小猪 and look for a good laugh, being loud and crappy when we feel like it.

being eternal sunshine is difficult.

post cereal/serial

they say i look happier
i suppose better happy than not...

shalom sar shalom

in singlish - "very long never laugh like that liao". meaning its been so long since we've all met up and laughed so hard with each other, at each other. maggie, dont thank me for organizing. thank you all of you, for being there. love u all loads. till we meet again!

"majesty majesty
your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed by alive in your hands .."

gluttony

glutton square on 13th Oct'06. featuring some of the gluttons - tiny, prettyboy #2 huanmin, sooleng & weizhong.

Once in a Blue Moon.

this morning, i experienced one of the most torturous conversations ever and its hard to explain why it affected me so much. my dad was chatting with his clients, a husband and wife duo who owns the coffeeshop, when i joined them for breakfast. and because their daughter who is from SMU too, they asked me if I know her. And I said no because all I know about her is her face, recognizable as the 'happening' people in SMU i suppose. And they started to talk about exchange and how she is in Europe and traveling to Paris, Italy and what not. And asked if I went and is going for an exchange.

[as this point in time as I am writing this, apple pops in his head to read and i began to tell him what happened. a few sentences and I was all muffled.]

the whole conversation then just revolved around the couple talking about what a spendthrift their daughter is, how pampered she is, how she spent $10,000 at Hong Kong alone, that I should go for exchange, once in a life time, enjoy while you are young, do I go clubbing, "oh your daughter is very sensible not like mine", "my son is in USA he doesnt want to come back", "oh you have a son too right". and all i could do is "er..ya...hurhur" and continue to stuff my face in noodles. i hated the way how it affected both my dad, mum and I. Even if they didnt say it, they must have felt alot when they hear about what they can offer for their kids and my dad can only say "dont say so much to her, she's also craving just that there is no money" i don't want them to feel that way. Even if I were to go anywhere, I am going on my own efforts, I don't want my parents to feel that they owe me something.

and i don't want to hear my own mother putting my dad down in front of all these strangers who know nuts about my family. and i couldn't show what I feel about all these even though i was downright miserable, and as I explain all these to apple verbally, I guess I found an outlet to release what I feel.

its not about feeling sorry for myself. i dont know what is it all about, why has that conversation affected me so much, but now that i cried it all out, it shall be left as a forgotten conversation.

when the pearls dry up and my insides stop quivering, everything is okay again. thank you apple, u were unlucky.

爱是感动的来源

千般百股暖流　從你關心的說話
深深感激一切　我一生記心中
在急風撲面而來　迷失中找到你
我的心不須驚怕　有你伴我身邊

＊時光總飛逝　未能停留　
容許多給你愛　以歌聲感激　
知心好友　我願為你高歌　
有天可相聚　未曾遺忘　
人海中得到你　與天邊中的海角與你　
快樂地再高歌

＊風吹雨打過程　成我一生的鍛鍊
不懂哭泣衝刺　有歡呼有歌聲
讓心窩熾熱未來　人生中總有愛
以雙手驅走黑暗　有願望有星光

:: 总有爱 ：：词曲：：黄加强 ：：演唱：：BEYOND

the last concert ended with this song 总有爱，with everyone in the stadium recalling the BEYOND years as those on stage thank what BEYOND as a band has given to them.

家强：
悲伤，自从哥哥走后他一直留给人的印象。从来不见家强很开心的笑过，他是一个脆弱的人，一直都无法接受家驹的离世，每次演唱会唱家驹的歌时眼睛都会很湿润。这次演唱会期间“祝你愉快”前，家强说：“不知道你们现在对家驹（他）还有什么感觉。。。我要感谢哥哥，送给他一首‘祝你愉快’”，这次他没哭，没有像以前看过的两个场海阔天空的视频里一样很纵情的哭。然而，因为家强是对BEYOND最有感情的，也是最不希望BEYON解散的，所以天津演唱会之后的庆功宴上他又哭了，“你们别再唱我们BEYOND的歌了，别再唱我哥哥的歌了。。。”

无奈，对于BEYOND解散，家强不得不接受，因为三个人的曲风已经大相径庭到不能容忍的地步了，甚至连曾经最默契的友谊都因之破裂了。这场演唱会“长空”之后，他说“这是我们BEYOND的最后一首歌，我们三个一起写的一首并且得了金像奖。。。”，说完就把脸扭到一边。。。

贯中（阿Paul）：
愤世嫉俗，阿Paul一直都显得很孤傲的，92演唱会就初露端倪了：一头乱糟糟的头发，带着墨镜，很奇异的裤子。今天唱歌时额上青筋暴胀，高潮时猛地振臂高呼，以及很多次猛扯琴弦，都能看出他的“愤怒”。其实贯中是一个感情很丰富的人，不过不会很容易显露，家强哭唱“海阔天空”时只有他忍住没有哭也才会有一张刻意抑制悲痛而扭曲了的脸。家驹走后，他写了很多歌怀念曾经的这位朋友、老师，像“Paradise”、“不见不散”；这场演唱会阿Paul讲到家驹时说“他使我们开了窍”，对于家驹，阿Paul除了怀念还有感激在里面的。

世荣 (drummer)：
BEYOND里面，世荣是最内向的了。鼓是他发泄感情的唯一工具，每次演唱会轮到他时他都没有唱得很开，即便是这次他演唱自己编曲作词的“无事无事”，虽然是一首很摇滚的歌，但感觉他唱得还是很压抑，然而每次世荣的经典鼓段，他都能完全的爆发，把感情发泄在每一个鼓点上，每一击钹敲里。

世荣可以说是BEYOND里最凄惨的一个了，先是失去家驹，接着女友Ste不幸死于车祸。03年红勘演唱会，世荣提到家驹，眼里泪光点点；这场演唱会“总有爱”之前说到Ste时，又不禁动情，“是Ste教我学会了坚强和长大，其实人是很脆弱的。。。这个世界上很多东西都是带不走的，但有一样东西却可以，就是爱”。。。

这场演唱会之后的BEYOND全国巡演，在很多城市的演唱会都没有做到如这场成功，因为香港歌迷是最忠实的。最后一首歌“总有爱”，一曲终了当悠扬而又略显厚重的键琴声在体育馆响起，三子向歌迷致意、谢幕、退场，曲终人散，一个乐队的神话终于完结。

PS：
以后可能再也看不到BEYOND的ＬＩＶＥ　ＣＯＮＣＥＲＴ了。。。

..... taken from the web.

sakae sakae

gan ann wonders says:
let's go sakae sushi!
unice says:
how come the sudden thought to eat sakae
unice says:
u miss manda ah
gan ann wonders says:
ya
gan ann wonders says:
i miss eating sakae with all of them

why do people say that?

penny for your thoughts.

quiet

[香港 :: 浅水湾]
"do you know of the restlessness that rings by your ear. drums an irregular beat, the skip a little faster. a hurricane, a cause unknown to your slow demeanour and that of few words.

and to the oblivious sea, thats ebbs and flows. being washed ashore by your tides and perhaps, making me scared of the water that rolls me in deep only to leave me stranded."






its the termbreak & well its no surprise that its hardly a break. had my CAT midterms today & its really demoralizing. with those away @ KL, then apple to KL, & gan ann busy... school seems so strangely quiet.

i decided to not go to Work & Travel USA in the end. hah, going to church always leaves me optimistic for the day... thinking that i should just sign up and pray for provision. then i thought that there were too many things to think about. it is a weak point of mine: to not manifest thoughts into action and being too hesistant and passive.

got to learn to be proactive, especially to get a job in December & maybe we could go on a month long SEAsia trip next summer. dont think so much la, find rest and know that He has everything in store.

Happy happy happy!

Food + Shopping + 老婆饼 from Hongkong makes eunice infinately happy!

managed to squeezepack everything from course being taught by apple & myself, to church, to dinner date with apple cos GCB is in KL, giving in to the temptation of shopping (the isetan sale is too much of a lure, $42 for 3 pieces which should cost at least $100 in original price.) & having merv bring over the goodie from good ol' hk.

im counting my blessings!

some of favouritest people in SMU. spot 'em!

happy happy!

月饼节快乐！what a marvelous way to start the term break. 月光大会 witnessed mooncakes (there's special homemade ones + splendid chilled durian ones), drinks, paper lantern & the noisy $2 fake spooky robot battery operated musical lantern, singing, stupid games, being whacked, being slapped (!!!!! i'd get back for this, i promise i promise i promise) at the L.O.S.T island of the East Side. and the aftermath? broken veins & blueblacks @ the back of my palm. oooh vengence....



[the happy kids reliving their childhood. the rest + our spooky super hero. gcb, giraffe & moi. the strummer. the yums! our homeground & some madness.]

and today i handed over my position. feel abit of everything but essentially happy.
because in the end, the club gave me people who are not only going to last for this term of office but the days afterwards too. and things that they say that allows me to siphon out the negativities.

received a not so nice news afterwards (get well soon !) but from that I saw how fast we were to fill up each other spaces. I guess thats also something we should congratulate ourselves for.

灵魂人物和其他的故事人物，总有差别。我看到了一些灵魂人物，看看自己。 希望吧。

Don't stray Don't ever go away I should be much to smart for this You know it gets the better Of me sometimes When you and I collide I fall into an ocean of you Pull me out in time Don't let me drown Let me down I say its all because of you and here I go Losing my control I'm practising your name So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right To look you in the eye And let all the things you mean to me Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time Tell you why I say its infinately true Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way Yeah I need to know All about you And there's no cure And no way to be sure Why everythings turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart And now It all turns sour Come sweeten Every afternoon Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way Yeah I need to know All about you Say you'll stay Don't come and go Like you do Sway my way Yeah I need to know All about you Its all because of you Its all because of you

金多虾

it is a luxury to have a whole day to hangout and not being in school. my cousin has been here for a week+ already and i havent had the chance to go out with her at all. and she'll always bring me places when im in m'sia since she can drive. so yesterday we spent the whole day out, from orchard to bugis, shopping..eating..talking.

Fried mars bars from Chippy's brings such happiness.

quote of the day from her
"don't think just buy.
if you think, you cannot buy anything."

Sleeping on it

It wasnt even my CAT paper tomorrow but i was trying out the sample paper and there Gan Ann asked me to solve Question 3. ohmyfreakinghead. my head was howling with noise as i try it then i gave up, virtually impossible. slept at 2am and guess what, all the while my head was ticking with possible ways to solve it. and when dawn broke, i guess i dreamt up a solution. yes, i actually got up at 8am+ to try out the method i dreamt of.

some craziness eh?

nostalgia: plopping our asses down in the caf and gossiping/laughing our break time away. cel & her horse laughter. hanging out @ cel's. when jan's & my bag got lost. when phones got lost. studying inside our container & lit trying to tell a hawk apart from a handsaw. hey, i finally caught a sight of the new PE tee they have, can someone get a Romanis one for each of us??

green

mervyn lee is @ hk with fi&manda. they went to cafe de coral and xu liu shan for mango. booohoooohooo. and poor eu is struggling over excel. dim gai?!?!?!

am watching a TVBS serial, and it features Stanley where we went. its bringing out the hongkietong in me and tomorrow i will go irritate the rest of them with my hkie accent ah. (manda: think DRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-gon.) and as i watch, i hope my cantonese vocabulary will be 无得顶！(*mo dak deng)

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

From The Wizard Of Oz.

"If I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own backyard, because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with." --Dorothy

pattisier samsuni

the show ended with sam soon dreaming about her life with jinhyun, with kids & her bakery. she woke up realizing they were just dreams and life went on as usual with squabbles, no kids & objections.

life may not be what we wish it to be. but we try. and should love ourself enough to give credit to ourselves when credit is due. brave enough to know and acknowledge our idiosyncracies. never mind if we cannot change them, but at least we know they make us who we are.

brave enough to take risks, face obstacles, get through them, get over them, to accept yourself & circumstances as what they are. u either try or you don't.

i know of a certain someone who always feel that "something is deluding him". for whatever that means. always feeling that something is stopping him from getting what he wants, feeling broke, hating his life, feeling bad then hating his life more.

such is what we call self-fulfilling prophesy.

<3

the smell of eternity.

...absolutely divine.