dedicated: to F.M & AHSCDS01

【無與倫比的美麗】

天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
你若担心你不能飞
你有我的蝴蝶

天上风筝在天上飞
地上人儿在地上追
我若担心我不能飞
我有你的草原

你形容我是这个世界上
无与伦比的美丽
我知道你才是这世界上
无与伦比的美丽
你知道当你需要个夏天
我会拼了命努力
我知道你会做我的掩护
当我是个逃兵

...苏打绿

te quiero

and it just keeps going downhill

I've got some deep scars from a little black heart that's miles away
I sent it packing after I saw what it did and I couldn't believe
And now my chest hurts from the hole that I dug, it's getting harder to breathe
I'm really gasping, wishing I could turn back and that would fix everything
For once...

My life
I might as well live it
Along with the bad times
Just happy to be living
So it's my time, I know it sounds selfish
I'm really not like that
We live and we die for this

So now my head hurts and it's only getting worse every time that I think
I feel like choking every time I have to sing, it's getting harder for me
And now my stomach hurts, as long as I'm in love it's so hard to leave
I feel a bad pain moving through my chest and my knees start to shake
My knees start to shake, it's bringing me down

This is my life
I might as well live it
Along with the bad times
Just love to be living
So this is my time
I know it sounds selfish
I think I'll have some ice cream
We live and we die for this

There's one thing missing every time I step outside
One thing missing every time I leave and drive
One thing missing every time I'm far from home
There's one thing missing every time I leave for months
One thing missing every time I lose control
There's one thing missing every time that I stay home

I've got some deep scars from a little black heart that only make me stronger
And now I don't sleep, seeing any relief that gives me some perspective
...Little Black Heart - The Early November

las lilas

it costs $340 for 10 lessons at Las Lilas o_O
should i continue on? i just feel that it is a waste to just forget everything as time goes by, like i did with korean. hmm, hmm, hmm.

BUT, i guess before that, i should think about how to get through my spanish paper this monday!! thought i just need to flip through and revise abit since i'm unusual-ly attentive during this class. I WAS SO WRONG. i was looking at the sample paper and i can't do them. so many foreign vocab in the comprehension passage. can't form sentences. go, going, gone.

also felt like a kindergarten kid learning how to spell her A-Z, 1-100, Monday-Friday & Jan-Dec.
save me, por favor!

bossa nova show

败给你：罗志祥 & Elva
...surprise yourself with this rare bossa nova number & realize that xiaozhu is more endeared for his personality than, well, his vocals. song is highly contagious.

s:陪你讲冷笑话
像冻到北极
要我陪你吃冰
恋爱是什么逻辑
算算星座和命理
到底谁在你心里

你这么惊天地
就要一路证明
谁在乎我有的比
当我一遇上你
却那么情不自禁
肯宁愿你蹂躏

你什么时候要回去你们火星
我越来越介意
做梦也梦到你
这算是我的天敌

e:你爱罗嗦又爱生气
喜欢我还嘴硬
好面子又假生气
s:好想被你吃定

败给你说话的眼睛
败给你微笑的魔力
不知不觉想每天跟你在一起
woo baby baby
woo baby baby woo love

败给你少一根神经
爱上你这是我的命
我们世界原来就等这默契
woo
baby baby woo baby baby woo

e:请问你还逼得我抓得那么紧
只是穿得性感些而已
你明明很自恋
让人等好着急

我心中你是第一名耐心还有爱心
爱不是有帅气就可以
拜托你别一直耍嘴皮
oh my oh my oh
my oh my

s:什么时候要付出你那颗心
我越来越介意
做梦也梦到你
这算是我的天敌

e:很奇怪只要看到你
就变得好开心(s:有吗)
我已不能判你出局
s:我想把你吃定

s:败给你爱上了你
看到小狗就蹲下去
骗自己你一定充满
我没发现的爱心

e:败给你爱上你
看不见你会生病
原来我也有害怕你
突然不见的危机

s:你也有温柔的时候
害我抬起头以为天上下着红雨
不然就是我还没有睡醒
只有一个我在意着的一个你
竟然的让我爱你
想你一天又一天又一天

败给你少一根神经(e: woo 败给你)
爱上你这是我的命(s:我败给你
e:爱上你)
我们世界原来就等这默契
woo baby baby woo baby baby woo

abolish exams

studying for exams is a slow and difficult process. especially when discipline is low and when there is a surround sound system of drilling, banging and the funeral march. construction and funeral downstairs at the same time. o k a y.

你是爱我的

同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手
你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔

为什么爱我又不断退后
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错*

你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠

我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

...你是爱我的 : 张惠妹 (STAR)

to not be sad.

You want to be happy. But maybe what you really want, is not to be sad.
...xh

Timing is everything in life

today's a self-declared semi break, well, to celebrate the end of week 13. did okay for the presentations & debate but not so for the quiz.

break for me is of course - coach potatoing.

Carter Duryea: Dan, you seem to have the perfect marriage. How do you do it?

Dan Foreman: You just pick the right one to be in the foxhole with, and then when you're outside of the foxhole you keep your dick in your pants.

Carter Duryea: That's poetic.

...In Good Company

Thumbs up. Has a great soundtrack too.

updates of week 13

1. Spanish oral exam in 2 days time. after practicing our speech for the past 2 mornings, jaslyn and i are able to complete the whole conversion without referring to our notes. hoping that we don't get tongue-tied or forget what we are supposed to say because some of those phrases are purely memorised.

2. Met Marcus along the way and he was asking me if i saw the students' work exhibition for his visual communication class. yea, Marcus is a prof but everyone refers to him by his first name. I guess he is just one of those prof who breaks the barrier of "I am the Professor and you are the Student". I really wanted to take his visual comm class which is really cool cos its about doing visuals for marketing and he's a good photographer. This is what he said to me "It is normal. People usually don't know what they want to do. There is no optimal job, just pick the best"

3. Went to the clinic because of my cold and here's the scene which left me and gan rather flabbergasted. This girl was at the counter insisting she wants to "order" medication, I think she was at it for quite some time already and it seems that the rule is that you cant just take medicine just like that and that she has to consult the doctor. She just kept insisting on ordering her medication and that she is a familiar patient. The receptionists at the counter kind of gave up on talking to her and just ignored her. 1 of them got fed up with her repeated requests and said if she just want to take medication without seeing the doctor, then she will have to go to the pharmacy. the girl said "if i take the wrong medication and die how?"

the receptionist actually said "die then die lor"

gan and i were shocked to hear that. while we agree the girl was being really unreasonable, it is unprofessional of someone who works at a clinic to say that. the story continued with the girl skipping the queue to see the doctor who gave her her medication i guess.

it takes 2 hands to clap, but no matter what the situation is, somethings should never be said.

travel bug

was looking through our Vietnam itinerary & got pretty nostalgic. in it there was this map hand drawn by fi & that was all we had to make sure we got to the correct hotel in Cambodia.

looking forward to the next time i set off with a bagpack again....

november trio

happy birthday to the November trio :)

oh my tian!

Sat 10/11:
Make up classes (from 8.30am till 3.30pm!) & dinner

Wed 14/11:
IPR presentation & report

Thurs 15/11:
Spanish oral & listening comprehension exam
PS final exam

Friday 16/11:
PMC Debate

Tue 20/11:
PS report submission

Thurs 22/11:
PS presentation

Mon 26/11:
Spanish final exam

Tue 27/11:
PMC final exam

Fri 30/11:
IPR final exam

success

To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded
...Ralph Waldo Emerson

The IPR Prof ended the last teaching lesson by leaving us to think about what is a meaning of life. Interesting as that is, what is interesting and admirable of him is that he feels that as a teacher, it is his duty impart such life lesson to us. I think he has succeeded.

yikes

now the work begins in true SMU fashion. Killer Week 13 when EVERYTHING is due.

our love was so comfortable

"We spent the next few hours talking, laughing, mercilessly taking the piss out of each other, and nothing. Not a flutter, not a stomach dip, not a thought at all in 'that' direction..... We didn't exchange numbers, we hadn't bought each other drinks and we certainly hadn't flirted. I didn't even remember what he looked like until the next time I saw him..... he didn't even stay that long in my mind after he was gone.

I didn't realize that's how it worked sometimes when you met the person you were going to fall in love with."

Marshmallows for Breakfast: Dorothy Koomson

music: John Mayer - Comfortable

属于

无焦距地品味着你
因为距离太近
我用力抱着你
用力记住一切
能做的只是珍惜
谁叫我们都是个体
因为我们是个体
就算再爱再疯再迷
能做的还是珍惜

看着最棒的你在这里
虽理性但仍怕失去
也许太早开始担心
谁叫世上没有属于
就是真的太美丽
我们不能拥有彼此
因为我们是个体
就算再爱再疯再迷
能做的还是珍惜

因为我们是个体
就算再爱再疯再迷
能做的还是珍惜

我命好， 感动了天

我，

你知道吗？我一直都相信生命的过程是了解自己的过程。 随着自己长大，时间会让你去发现或去思考自己是怎样的一个人。

我发现，这个过程会让你有欣慰的时候， 也会让你又失望的时候。

到了某个阶段， 你可能会发现你不太喜欢你自己。会被自己的被动， 懒散感到失望。你会看到身旁的有些人，因为有目标或有冲劲， 在你旁边提醒着你-“也该你了。” 会很羡慕他们。然后，又会气自己， 为什么只会想或说这些有的没的。 行动呢？

不知道。

你也将会很惊讶。自己什么时候变得那么没自信。 to deteriorate with time, physically & mentally. 那是很可怕的。

其实，你只是想这一生会看到自己很用心的时候。

会让你欣慰的是你所建起的城墙。朋友这座城墙, 在你不知不觉中，已随着时间变的牢固.

他们的 email, msn, sms 真的有感动你。

我想。。。
“你命好， 感动了天”