Tuesdays with Morrie

i just finished reading Tuesdays With Morrie (yes, im always a laggard when it comes to books because i dont buy them & so my supply of good book comes from friends. By the way, Tuesdays With Morrie was nicked from Apple's locker.) and stories like these stick with you because it imparts philosophies & values which you get reminded of in your everyday life.

whilst i still spend a lot of time on tv & the computer because they are things i enjoy doing, i started to be conscious about my time spent with people. i start to be conscious about what we talk about & wonder why its difficult for us to approach subjects such as life, something that digs deeper into the soul than money & career. maybe its the culture that stops us from discussing about such things, like what we think about life and death, thinking that it may be too weird or too morbid. but maybe its the lack of talking about it that we fear so much. (personally, the very thought of death grips me with fear.) also, it may be because its much easier to laugh & gossip then to think about the unknowns of our existence.

then again, i also know everyone wants establish their friendship on a deeper level just from the fact how people find varsity life superficial because conversation never got much beyond school. so then, why haven't we began such conversations?

i also realized that i have a short attention span when it comes to talking to people even more so when it comes to the telephone. I'm one of the worse person to have a tele-conversation, there are times i felt that the silence gets too awkward & i want to hang up. recently, i don't even want to log in to msn & my sms msg(s) become monosyllabic. i am reminded of how i cannot hold eye contact after i have done my smile & wave and how i always look away.

many things have replaced one-to-one conversations, e.g.: multiple chat windows, project discussion, board meetings. my talk with jan on the bus last night reminded me that it these one on one session that we manage to ask each other how we are coping with our lives now.

everyone needs a Morrie who looks you in the eye and reaches u at a deeper level. not just as the various organizational role you play such as eunice the student and eunice the smugger. maybe we all have to begin from ourselves to play deeper roles like the daughter, the son, the granddaughter, the friend, the love, the listener, the helping hand.