门徒

"吸毒，是因为空虚，那到底是空虚可怕，还是吸毒可怕？”

是因为空虚吗？

如果在一年前看这部戏，我或许会像多数的观众 对于所看到的一切感到震撼。像如梦初醒般的，第一次看到一个截然不同的世界。像不小心走到了后巷。是可怕的。分别是在‘可怕’和‘害怕’这两个名词。可怕 还是遥远的。可怕，是像隔岸观火。 电影就像是个社会新闻。令人寒酸的社会新闻。所以，记住了，忘记了。 我是害怕的。throughout the show, i remembered a scene. 恐惧来自于，看到黑暗有多黑。看到社会新闻的真实性。we walked away feeling disturbed from the show. i was shit scared. like how the scene i saw was just but one scene, what's the rest? too shit scared to imagine.

the show made me think a lot. like how if everything is derived from emptiness, maybe we need more psychiatrists than police. the futility of daniel wu's effort to destroy andy lau & his syndicate when in the end, really what does it amounts to? so much so that he asked himself this question, "吸毒，是因为空虚，那到底是空虚可怕，还是吸毒可怕？”

i wondered if human efforts are futile. i prayed.