going out?

for the uninitiated, hola! life without the laptop and being disconnected from the cyber world means limited surfing from the office, no youtubing, no msn-ing, no chatboards. bt that also meas more time and more initiative to go out and hang out. there's a couple of changes to my current lifestyle, one of the most important to me is attending church regularly.

if i were to use the analogy of being in a romantic relationship, what best describes how i feel now is that, i used to think that there's nothing to lose being single. there's nothing to be upset about, life still goes on and life can still be beautiful. but when you get back into a relationship, and in this instance meaning me getting back into the relationship with God, u realize it's not about what you lost but more so of what you gain. be it knowingly or unknowingly, tangible or intangible, somehow somewhere something changed for me.

and also in the very same way for shar - from meeting only a few times a year, i now see her every sunday. its not that i lost a friend in the past, she was always there when i needed her. but yet now i still feel that i gained back something precious to me, and i do treasure and see the blessing of this friendship more.

so, that's the cup half-full version of my life.

more on going out...
Australia ?
Taiwan (kending kending kending) - $300 return airtickets ??
Korea ?

negative externalities

many a times, its not about you. its not about how hard you try, how hard you work, how good you are. many a times, its not about just doing your part and living your own life. because, shit is bound to come. shit that aint yours, problems that you didnt create. but they become your problem and you end up cleaning up someone else's shit. its like.. the recession, like pollution.. like responsibility and like no choice.

there is very good term for this in economics, its called negative externalities. and you can't escape from it.

this is 2008

Life is like having on your hands on many separate blackjack games simultaneously.

We withdraw from some tables and get involved with new ones. Like how we went from full-time student to full-time employee. The last set of card dealt from the game of school resulted in a paper certificate and a commencement ceremony of a whole new card game called career. Ambition is like the first set of unopened cards, where things are still fluid and uncertain - place for hope. For those like me who don’t know what to expect, we only hope to win. With the chances of a sure win scarce, we can only try to fight for the optimal. Still, we win some we lose some.

And in the table of family and friendships, we gave some a hard time and vice versa. Yet they sat alongside as we all battle against this necessary game of life. But some withdrew from our game so unexpectedly and didn’t give us a chance to recoup our losses.

I guess this is how I can best sum it up. Life - something you can never reconcile your winnings or losses, measure your happiness and unhappiness. I won this much, I lost this much. I am this happy and this sad.

态度

我们对生命要抱着什么样的态度？

生命，那是自然会给人类去雕琢的宝石。 ——诺贝尔

这是一个让我感受到亲情，友情，爱情和团队精神的篮球纪录片。

see no evil.

this is one of 'em days where i dont feel like facing the world. i stepped out of my house wishing that singapore had the lifestyle / culture of donning mouth masks like taiwan & japan. it's sure one of those days where i want one on without people giving weird looks or inching away for fear that they might contract SARS.

oh gosh, the agony of human contact.

and the GPS says Please Recalculate Your Route

it's very simple really.

we just want to be happy.
but that road to happiness???

we are but poor navigators.

life and not.

many things i thought i want to do, like...

1. go for a walk to nowhere in particular. put on a pair of shoes, arm with the camera and just be off. and be pleasantly surprised with where i end up with/at.

2. have a picnic.

3. have a movie marathon

4. find a way to express how i feel.

but come weekend and free time, i get all lazy and all i want to do is to sleep or park myself at home and in front of the computer.

but above all, i wish i could make things the same. i wish i could take away the fear in their hearts. i wish you would know how much you are missed. i wish that time and action can be reversed. and we can choose again, choose again.

there's so many thing we can do and so many things we can't.

thurs, 8.30am, wa lao

there was once i dreamt that i overslept on a workday. i woke up praying that this will never happen in real life. lo & behold... this morning when i opened my eyes, i was shocked by how bright the room was. the first question i asked myself was, is it the weekend??

thurs, 8.30am, wa lao. nightmare come true.

warming up for work

the favourite part of my work day is in the morning when i get settled down with a nice hot cup of tea/coffee, slowly warming myself up for work.

friday cds nights.

realized that hanging out with the drama peeps on friday nights has become a lifestyle pattern for me and tonight, i crashed the boys' band practice.

besides the recorder, the triangle and the tambourine (ktv at taiwan!), i havent pretty much played any other instruments. so i am super happy pia taught me how to play the bass today. He probably had regretted saying "come, i teach you something brainless", because i sure took awhile to learn. but so happy! thank you!

i hope such friday night meetups continue! be it a big group gathering or just the girls or just the tampines gang!

on weekends.

life definately gets easier when there's something to look forward to, and in today's instance - the weekend!

last saturday was spent at the flea market at homeclub, central & ending it off with fireworks viewing. my very romantic date with ganann - watching the fireworks in the rain. sunday was breakfast with dad and then the rest of the day in front of the tv watching the Olympic Games.

as for this weekend, I've gotten tickets at a discounted price to catch 12 Lotus with my mum. Baybeats is on and i'm keeping my options open about catching My Little Airport there on Sunday.

Meanwhile, I decided to reward myself with...

the much raved about Sodagreen's concert dvd.

so, i'll organize an 'openhouse' to watch this together when i get the dvd. (well, i know there's at least 1 friend who is with me in this, right yieng?)

adios.. enjoy your weekend =)