thoughts on a sleepless night

there were thoughts of friendship and celebrations. mics and singing. dreams and living. audience and feeling. there were beautiful pictures taken. we were in a beautiful place. sometimes i solve problems inside my head and sometimes i astonish myself by dreaming up solutions in that mixture of sleep and unsleep. i imagine many scenarios and watch them play out. i wonder if its the caffeine that did me in and then when i'm ever getting any sleep. then i get tired of thinking. and then i think somemore. at moments i willed myself not to think. i concentrate on my breathing. and then the next thoughts came. i entertained it. i think i get too caught up. then i think, maybe i should just wake up.