december job

just signed the agreement for a job which will last from 6 - 22nd dec as an admin. let's just say that i will feel happy for which ever that comes my way. but then $$ will only come in after Christmas, so im hoping i dont have to pay to fix my keyboard.

it has been a simple day and tml is day out with mama & step up!

8

girls

http://www.yoshidakaban.com/bag_po_ground.html

bags are never enough.

9

time passes because we draw sand castles in the clouds.
castles big, small unspoken aloud.
and you're like a spot placed on the map quite far away from my own.
time spent as we try make paper into goods.
teethered on a high strung guitar drunk sober.
affirming you a spot placed on the map quite far away from my own.

jun26 2006

it's sprinkling outside

i am glad that i don't have to be in school, freeze in the library, pour over my books and coming back home late. i do enjoy the fact that i can just park my lazy ass in front of the tv, sleep, wake, read and watch the day slowly pass. the day passes so slowly, something i wanted so much during the hustle bustle of school when i wished there's more time, to accomplish everything and go home early.

i thought i should get out of home and do something. then i got lazy. then its starts pouring, raining then drizzling. there's something in the air when the end of the year its near. makes u think about stuff, reminsce, to pack things up a little, to make more sense. to wrap things up, hide them, put them away. u want to feel that u have done well, that all will be good and better things will come along. someway somehow.

i think of some people of the past. they are like black and white motion people with no sound. they just amble along. i see all the familiar things that they do. but they don't make me neither happy nor sad. it's like me, lying on my back in a still lake of water. it was me moving, or did the clouds move past me, slowly but steadily across the skies.

10

"Had we but world enough and time"

[andrew marvell] / also found in [time traveler's wife]

the post

the last lap of the term was the New Product Development presentation. another of those prof you love to hate but u got to give it to him cos he's really good when it comes to talking about real education. anyway, we survived. apple even stayed up the whole night just to finish his assignments in time.

and to reward ourselves, we went for Sakae buffet!!!! i just realize that we spend so much time stuffing our face, we never take any pictures. we really gorged out ok. feifei ordered like there's no tomorrow. and we had (a lot of) sushi, handrolls, chawanmushi, chicken salad, takopachi, gyoza, scallops, udon, dessert. got 50-60 plates? apple fell asleep after satisfying his stomach. it was freaking good, but please not too often lah. though i'm salivating as im recalling now. hahaha
then those who needed to mug went off, leaving the 3 amigos. we wanted to watch step up BUT everything went against us. sad.

my voice is a total dao sha pia now. ooo, husky.

11

"我也曾经有过野蛮女友，但她现在有她的生活了，我也很高兴.....野蛮只是掩饰心理空虚的一种表现，她们一定有过被抛弃的过去，那些愚蠢的男人看到的东西都太肤浅了.......记得，这时候你要过去安慰她，尽管她打你，骂你，也不要离开她......"

were you, for a moment, taken in? there is no real sassy girl. chu gor shi por?!

12

南瓜马车的午夜

return me back to 0

unhappiness

its funny how the doctor said the same thing after staring down my icky throat. "Your tonsils are very unhappy. Most probably due to your lack of sleep." I assume he derived that from my eye rings which are a permanent fixture. The wait for my turn to see the doctor lasted 1 hour and i just totally conked out on the clinic's sofa. I was pretty embarrassed to find out later that 1 of my project mates actually spotted me sleeping. High fever, swollen tonsils but still work waits to be done. Now that it's done, its time to crash because the doctor warned that I need to get at least 8 hours of sleep else I will wake up with an exploding head. I concur.

only such shit happens to me

We are in school on a Sunday because of a presentation tomorrow. It was made worse when my bottle of vanilla coke gushed it contents over my laptop & myself. My keyboard went berserk and it obviously didnt make me very happy. In fact, I was so freaking pissed. (and yes i'm swearing off coke) now its better (we reckon its cos it dried out) but some keys are still spooked. Like 'shift' will induce copy & paste. an unhappy keyboard, unhappy and brain dead groupmates, unhappy and swollen tonsils, a very unhappy me. it just made everything worse.

sober

看得太清楚 未必是件好事。

轧车

looking forward to the 6th of dec

老爸老母 整天底骂
喋喋喋念 不知念啥
是按怎哪会按呢
身边的问题一摊
这时阵上好作阵来去轧车
作阵来轧车 作阵来轧车
不管伊警察底抓 不管伊父母底骂
只要我引擎催落 无人可当甲我轧
在这我最快最趴最大

just because it is 五月天。
阿信！

meow

striked off the last quiz of the term plus the CAT which nearly killed me. it was like a race against time. left school just in time to catch the last train, worked at home till 3am. Lemsip MAX didnt work in the morning but at least i survived the day. Our project was still quite okay, but at least I got it off my back. Just hoping it won't do any harm to my gpa.

I thought all is well from then onwards, but only such shit happen to me. I took the wrong bus thinking it was 23 but it turned out to be 133. First thing up the bus is sleep so I only woke up when the person beside me wanted to get off. And I realize the whole place looks WEIRD. I ended up in Serangoon. shit the bala. $10 flew away just to get me home. shit the bala x2.

okay now off to strike off more things from my to-do list. 10days more!

but we are adding 1 more item on the agenda for our sakae meeting. looks like we really need a whole day.

SO do you have anything to tell me?

reality check

time check: 3 am
im just trying very hard to keep up the act.

Fang

Happy 21st Mr. Fang. I chose a nice picture of you (before u decide to become 堕落） and of the yanyan you (and us too!) miss. i hope your life will be filled with infinite hope and meaning even as you embark on your medicine journey.

but it has been a good weekend because of you guys =)

the 1st 2 first.

happy birthday to the both of you. First yieng & then pia. the friendship, the laughter u have brought. and the many hugs too. (hahaha). i hope u being drunk tonight, wakes you up to a better tomorrow.

music of the night

and 15th april 2007 shall be the night.

picture in mind

a long long day indeed in school just doing work. while waiting for dad to pick me up because i carelessly left my wallet at home, i was sitting @ the steps enjoying the breeze, staring at the all too glaring headlights with a dull pain in my head. spent the quiet moment just questioning God. About what He has in store for me after I graduate. Because till now, everything has been a planned sequential succession from primary school - secondary school - jc - varsity. and to grad its like plunging into the unknown & into the countless possibilities. i tried to picture what i could be, but that remains a blank. while that may be quite sad to not know what i want or have an aim in mind, at least what i am feeling is not worry. because no matter what happens, i just want to be someone who dont lose myself. i hope i never get defeated, i want to be strong enough to take on anything. i want to be survive good and happy under any circumstance. i want to be a happy-go-lucky, and most of all i want to be a wise person. not book smart, but wise enough to keep my head above the water & to bring me to places.

fiest - mushaboom

the music's back. kicking it off with an artiste i heard over the radio - Fiest. hopefully it will make u happy like it does to me. butsh my nose ish leakin today againsh.

effy

one of those days im home earlier, after a 10pm tauhway session. managed to catch most of project runway on tvmobile so i was kinda happy. nowadays the best i get out of tv is america's next top model and project runway cos they are the ones showing when i just stepped home and just wanna sit my bum down & be a couch potato.

so now im comfyly seated @ my study table. its all peaceful & nice, something to be enjoyed about the night. unlike in the day when everyone is just about their own things, and talking to each other mostly via msn is just to kill boredom or talk about work. people seem to get more 'real' at night, when they finally decide to brush work aside to focus on something more than work. that's when some of those lost 'lost within themselves' turn their radars on too i suppose. then continue to get lost within themselves.

from a distance

i didnt know that it'd be that painful.

week 12

about conniving knives.
at some point, we get affected by what people say about us. but that changed for me when someone reminded me "why should you care about people who speak bad about you. they aren't your friends to begin with. people who know you will know you." and since then i've lived by this mantra. i see no point in playing pretense with people you don't like. and i hope i am right in believing that the people i keep close around me, are those people who know me and are true in that relationship towards me. well, that' s what i hope & its tiring to doubt. i hope u like me for who i am and for who i am not.

about what i have been occupied with
that isnt too hard to tell. but its week 12, just 2 weeks more and december will come. so i'd hang in there. meanwhile, little breaks is good. today, lunch was at PS and we checked out the newly opened daiso there. the rest of the day was spent staring at the laptop, waiting for it to finish hanging and figuring out bidding. feeling totally woozy now after leaving school at close to 11.30pm

okays. concussing now to get ready to battle the list on my post-it. aja aja fighting!

the new vulgar

Committments were vulgar (and still is).
now CAT becomes the new vulgar.

the screams
in the caves brings back echo.
so if you didnt hear
did the tree really fall in that forest?

sunday

at least the k craving was kinda satisfied..

casper the friendly ghost

"mummy, its overrr!!!"
..... from just for laughs.

a little girl on the bus mimicked this line the green monster said and she's sounded so cute when she did that. i love watching Casper the Friendly Ghost on tvmobile, and i am always disappointed when they finish showing it so i'd turn to the one sitting beside me, whining that "its over...."

so the comment i got back one day was "i can imagine you with your kid in future, watching Casper and going "its overrr..." in unison to your husband."

quite an amusing scene.

拥抱

did a little movie reading up on 盛夏光年 for which mayday did an ost for.
...to realize that my favourite emo song from them was meant to celebrate gayism.



脱下长日的假面 奔向梦幻的疆界
南瓜马车的午夜 换上童话的玻璃鞋

让我享受这感觉 我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味 纷乱世界的不了解

昨天太近明天太远 默默聆听那黑夜
晚 风吻尽荷花叶 任我醉倒在池边

等你清楚看见我的美 月光晒干眼泪
那一个人爱我 将我的手紧握
抱紧我 吻我
爱..别走

隐藏自己的疲倦 表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野 找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言 就算是你的谎言
我需要爱的慰借 就算那爱已如潮水

那一个人爱我 将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我
爱
别走

for those who don't see.

so delighting!

we are supposed to get over with school first then plan for the trip in dec. but just out of curiousity, i googled for train rides from thailand onwards and it got me all excited..! SG-M'sia-Thailand-Vietiane (Lao) - Vietnam - ....... just a tiny peekaboo. will get down to the nittygritties & budgeting in dec. u guys wait up yea?

spanking good time

thank you you guys for the horrific good time. peishan & family for the splendid spread of food. for being such good sport. the skit, the hard gay performance & the worse dressed forfeit by tiny & mervyn was hilarious. i had such a great laugh and memories to last us for time to come. gracias to GanAnn for drawing my star of david & peishan for my teardrop. quick load the peektures!

freak out.