lost time life.

lost time life. watch here.

japanese just have this way of intertwining drama with reality and reality with drama, and there's always meaning behind it all. somehow reminding us that even in our boring-est of life, maybe there too lies meaning to be discovered.

alan's 2008

we always make fun of alan for being so emo and being perpetually being "me is sad" or "me is sianzz". but it is left unsaid between us that we all know that without alan we will probably have less gatherings and there will be no one to coordinate alumni events. without alan, there is no magic school bus which brings us to the faraway land of geylang, mount faber, east coast, bukit timah just to name a few.

wow, im dedicating a whole post to alan soh... but at least FINALLY, we have non-anal pictures of alan. i guess alcohol do make a difference!

me accompanying alan's quest to get drunk.

back to earth

在他的文字里，我找到我想要说的话。

“每次都發現自己沒有準備好，
就不知不覺醒在大人的世界裡了。

大人的世界滿累的，

說明書都厚厚一大本，
做什麼事，說什麼話，
上面都規定的井井有序。

大人的世界滿徒勞的，

常常努力的把一件事做好了，
卻發現不能滿足所有人。

大人都很奸詐。

大人不能隨便哭。

我不想長大。

大人的世界通常都有目的。

這麼說吧，大人踢球，一定有球門，

也一定把所有踢球的人分兩邊，
穿上不同顏色的衣服。

如果踢球沒有球門，那怎麼計分？
沒有分數，那踢那麼久球要幹嘛？

但是小孩，踢球的時候，就是在踢球。

蝴蝶在飛，陽光在吹，小孩在踢球。

我不想長大。”

。。。陈信宏

then again, in accordance to this ranting, why then do we choose to succumb this idea of being an adult. why then, do we push ourselves to be practical? in the end, should we be the ones to blame for being too weak, too practical, too meek? then do i have the right to criticize when i have chosen to fall into this trap of adulthood perhaps since a very long time ago.

i've always wanted to watch a concert in taiwan, and no prize for guessing who tops my list. and now that im finally going to taiwan, i thought oh well, just not my luck all the artiste on my watch list (khalil fong, mayday) are having their concert in april.

BUT today i found out that mayday's concert is on may 17th. thats is just a bloody 4 days before i get to smell taiwan's air. 4 daysss!

oh, my, heart.

no mug

as we edge closer and closer to the end of academic life (just 3 more weeks to be exact), it gets more and more painful to be mugging for exams. feel like this old train running out of steam, struggling and chugging the last lap to the destination.

im currently having serious thoughts about not studying. that thought, is very tempting.

another trip on the magic school bus.

this face spells h-a-p-p-y
all thanks to alan & the magic school bus!

feeling

HOPE
noun
1.the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best

EXCITEMENT
noun
1. the feeling of lively and cheerful joy

i've been had

ur email name- eu, it means 'had' in french. As in ' j'ai
eu un grand amour' , 'i had a great love'

let's hope this doesn't happen anytime soon!

i really thought i had something great. so precious that i dared not to hold it too tight nor too loose, that i was neither able to give nor take, be brave or cowardly, be honest or deceiving...

we were neither here nor there

until i've been had.

a love letter from my father

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad.

i may be faraway
but you are always there to remind me that you are not.
so many strands of hair do i have on my head, even all those baby hair that i never seem to be able to tame.
and why hot sunny singapore? so what are your plans for me?

i should start focusing on the final lap

that's just me,
everytime before i embark on a trip, i spend a lot of time doing online research for the itinerary planning.
planning the trip, to me, is part of the fun of the trip
seeing it slowly manifest into reality just makes you look forward to it more.

now, if there's a research job that only pertains to travel research. i wouldn't mind it at all!

today, i came across this PR job posting and its looking for people who are into chinese entertainment - taiwan / canto. i turned to ric (who was in class with me) and said "eh, i think its calling out to me."

$2000 / month. Yup, these are the kind of jobs that are calling out to me.

The March Trio 2008

蓝眼睛

你的眼睛, 蓝色的一面海
总是太安静, 像是会有暴风雨
呼唤一个夏季也许那天都逝去
海面闪着泪像梦境

你的眼睛闪烁的一面海
平静地叹息洒了一片碎玻璃
穿过一座岛屿也许那天都死去
海浪都沉默累不累

作一场冒险的表演
走过千秋万岁寂寞的云烟
下雨天没有地点可以搁浅
拍一张分别的纪念
努力远走高飞失眠的海面
地平线彩虹消失在一瞬间


其实从头到尾谁又得到了水仙
其实从头到尾走了错误的航线
让海水都没去你我的脸闭上眼
回到原点一个语言两个世界

...苏打绿/张韶涵

让我很感动的一首歌。

三芝飛碟屋

this 三芝飛碟屋 caught my attention immediately as i was browsing through pictures of taiwan on flickr.

such a beautiful architect but yet is abandoned. why? read here.

would love to go there for pictures. and gan ann comes on mind her because i think she is the only one who will be as excited as me about this, or as weird as me.

curtains down

我们的开始　是很长的电影
放映了三年　我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾　脑海中还在旋转
望着你　慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间　我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈　圈起了谁改变
如果再重来　会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟　让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　你妆都花了要我怎麽记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　不是因为在乎

...周杰伦：最长的电影

there was once you filled me in with the details of the past
that i have forgotten
then you forgot
and i remembered.

taiwan!

now that the flight tickets are booked, i can say with conviction that i am going to taiwan!!
i am not the only one excited about this, no?

on the other hand that means 2 months of scrimp and save till i get there on 21st may...

huffs

for the past weeks, its been like a non-stop papers/tests/homework baton passing marathon. the end seems so near yet so far.

gene cell groupies

pictures taken with talib's pro camera on the malacca trip

speed

70 words

Speedtest

the first time i did a typing speed test was for my 1st job application. i took a random book, typed and timed myself. when i reported it to Nicole (my job agent who got me the job at FedEx) she was like 'that's quite fast'.

people from other generation, i think, do not use the correct method to type. There is a way really. When I first got my desktop in primary school, I did not play games like most kids would (im not a gamer really), but spent my time on this CD-ROM which teaches me how to type correctly. like where to place your fingers etc. Its quite fun really!

BUT the bulk of my training came from the IRC. trust me we typed fast and furious then. if you know what I mean, again, we are so from the 80's.

ba chor mee break

its time to reward myself with...BA CHOR MEE break.

dad's bringing us to 85!

team tres

it was great to have the 3 of us hanging out once again. just apple, wz and i. amidst the eating and all, it just hit me that i really do miss having them around me, like most of the time. we took all our marketing mods together - marketing research, consumer behavior, retail, advertising.

when they saw me yesterday, they commented ...
"i think last time you spend too much time with us, now that we are not there and you start hanging out with girls, you become more girl."

of course they have to add "but then, you still very airport". DOH.

are u criminalistic???

the fact that my del.icio.us is filled with scientific websites about genetics and criminal behaviour says a lot about my life right now.

叹息

很像那深深的叹气可以带走一切。

unfounded.

found and
lost and found.

times when i want to be mary poppins.

i think of the papers barely written and it scares the living shit out of me.

thoughts on a sleepless night

there were thoughts of friendship and celebrations. mics and singing. dreams and living. audience and feeling. there were beautiful pictures taken. we were in a beautiful place. sometimes i solve problems inside my head and sometimes i astonish myself by dreaming up solutions in that mixture of sleep and unsleep. i imagine many scenarios and watch them play out. i wonder if its the caffeine that did me in and then when i'm ever getting any sleep. then i get tired of thinking. and then i think somemore. at moments i willed myself not to think. i concentrate on my breathing. and then the next thoughts came. i entertained it. i think i get too caught up. then i think, maybe i should just wake up.

SEISHUN

　"如果青春注定要不断奔跑,他妈的,我什么时候跑到出口!"
...六号出口(movie）

all in good time

God On The Mountain

Life is easy when you're up on the mountain
And you've got peace of mind like you've never known.
But then things change and you're down in the valley.
Don't lose faith for you're never alone.

For the God on the mountain is still God in the valley.
When things go wrong, He'll make it right.
And the God of the good times
is still God in the bad times.
The God of the day is still God in the night.

You talk of faith when you're up on the mountain.
Oh but the talk comes easy when life's at its best.
But it's down in the valley of trials and temptation
That's when faith is really put to the test.

For the God on the mountain is still God in the valley.
When things go wrong, He'll make it right.
And the God of the good times
is still God in the bad times.
The God of the day is still God in the night.

For the God on the mountain is still God in the valley.
When things go wrong, He'll make it right.
And the God of the good times
is still God in the bad times.
The God of the day is still God in the night.
The God of the day is still God in the night.

God,
though we may not know when, where or how we are going to get there. or that I hear my Yes and Amen and the Seek and You shall Find and the Ask and you will be Given ringing loudly in my ears. and that things dont happen at the snap of our fingers and we are just taking our tiny baby steps day after day just trying. we will get there. God, i know i will get there. eventually. i know it. maybe God's answer to my prayers is "eventually". maybe you whispered that to me and i didnt catch it. all in good time.

fly to taipei

its bloody irritating that the flight discount are for flights from July onwards and it seems really late to be flying only in July which is 2.5 months away from my last paper. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.