u are not a fiasco

just in case we get into the whole deep hole of mulling over THAT something, i have this for you from Elizabethtown:

Drew Baylor: [voiceover] There's a diffrence between a failure and a fiasco. A failure is merely the absence of success. Any fool can achieve failure. But a fiasco, a fiasco is a disaster of epic propotions. A fiasco is a folk tale told to other's to make other people feel more alive because it didn't happen to them.

STILL mulling over the loss nor lack of direction?

Hollie Baylor: I was still waiting for everything to start, and now it's over.

i love this show.

the dogged and the flea

gan wanted to find an outlet to get rid of her old clothes so hence the stall she booked at the flea coming up in June. I'd be helping her, so if anyoneof you have clothes/bags/accessories you are sick of, u can clear them off to the garang guni here!

Lenka : Anything I'm Not

I will never be, I will never be tall, no
And I will never be, never ever be sure, of it all
Oh, why's the world so cruel to me
When all, all I ever want to be is anything I'm not
Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not.
I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know,
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality

take courage

"have courage to live a crazy life"
...printed on a cafe's window in CBD

going out?

for the uninitiated, hola! life without the laptop and being disconnected from the cyber world means limited surfing from the office, no youtubing, no msn-ing, no chatboards. bt that also meas more time and more initiative to go out and hang out. there's a couple of changes to my current lifestyle, one of the most important to me is attending church regularly.

if i were to use the analogy of being in a romantic relationship, what best describes how i feel now is that, i used to think that there's nothing to lose being single. there's nothing to be upset about, life still goes on and life can still be beautiful. but when you get back into a relationship, and in this instance meaning me getting back into the relationship with God, u realize it's not about what you lost but more so of what you gain. be it knowingly or unknowingly, tangible or intangible, somehow somewhere something changed for me.

and also in the very same way for shar - from meeting only a few times a year, i now see her every sunday. its not that i lost a friend in the past, she was always there when i needed her. but yet now i still feel that i gained back something precious to me, and i do treasure and see the blessing of this friendship more.

so, that's the cup half-full version of my life.

more on going out...
Australia ?
Taiwan (kending kending kending) - $300 return airtickets ??
Korea ?

May day May day. SOS

For the past 2 years, May has been the month for traveling and it meant no school for the next 3 months. And this is the first year for my friends and I after 16 years of formal education, that there is no such thing as a month long break.

its ironic. how we used to have time and no money, and now money but no time. and i am just not so ready to embrace the idea of just a weekend getaway, it feels like i am short changing myself and the idea of a traveling.

sore.

about old friends

the thing about old friends is that they know you. they know what you are trying to express even as you try to find the words to do so. they elicit the response that you what, and they feel the same way as you do. like how we crave the same food, or how we all itched to go ktv while watching the musical.

even more than that, they know your family. they know the situation, they know the difficulties. the was, the had been. and more important than that, they take time and find chance to know about the now. they explore the possibilites of a family business, and hear you talk about sending your parents for english classes. they tell you that they are desperate to meet you and that this 1 to 1 conversation is good. they spend time to take long meals together, because that when we get to talk to one another.

they discuss with you about your future and the reminisce the past with you. they tell you how much they appreciate the fact that you know what they are talking about. and how you are different. and they look back at all that happened and tell you that they felt touched about this friendship the same way as you do. and yes, they feel that our friendship is really "damn solid" too. we come together to laugh, we see the tears that arent cried. we can bitch with just eye communication too.

and the lesson to learnt from this is that, all these above doesnt come by chance or effortlessly. for every friendship kept, there is that someone holding on to that string of yours, tugging it every once in a while to make sure you arent lost in sight.

so here's to you, who has kept me for all these years.

loves.