till reunion

im sorry even the adults have no answer for you.

dear _ ,
i noticed that while you were crying, you screamed why. why?? even as i watched our uncles smoking, cursing - face wrinkled in pain, they too asked why. i don't understand, he said. why??

why did you leave us this way?

Till better days

In a car outside, we stalk the idle kind.
If you're leaving, just let me know.
Tobacco and peppermint, dusting for fingerprints.
A film in her eyes from the glow.

Some rules are made with all intentions to break
And she defends it with a warped rationale.
And I've seen what happens to the wicked and proud
When they decide to try to take on the throne for the crown.

And we learn as we age.
We've learned nothing and my body still aches.
And you take cause they give.
Though I love you and my body it leaks like a sieve.

When it got old outside, smoke beneath the playground lights.
If you're coming home, just let me know.
Sucking on your breath mint, dissected and stuck with pins.
A film in her eyes from the glow.

Concrete and water, she's looking for her daughter
At midnight in torrential downpour.
And everything I said about how messed your head is,
Was cut up and left in bits and pieces on the cutting room floor.

Take the picture from the wall when you think that nothing matters.
Take the picture from the plane and it's a long ways to the floor.
Cut your finger on the edge cause it's sharper than they told you.
Take a leap from out the window cause it's way too far to go through the door

"Jaw Theme Swimming" by Brand New

jaa.

till better days

缺氧

我不喜欢拥挤的人潮,
觉得要配合别人的脚步，
顾及他人心情，
又要拿捏好自己的情绪，
是一件很累人的事。

-

being nice doesn't pay nor give you character does it.

是誰說彩虹不能長頭上

一隻鯨魚 要怎麼放進冰箱 打開門 然後用力關冰箱
然後呢 如果你還想要 放一隻大象
一份希望 要怎麼放進心臟 如果你 活的有一點悲傷
答案是 用力丟掉鯨魚 用力甩悲傷

是誰說半夜不能吃便當 是誰說彩虹不能長頭上
是誰說藍色就等於憂傷 你看看天空和海洋...

this is a Stay Real collaboration With 7-11.

Open-Chan is 3!

semi something

i am in the midst of a semi something. something but not yet something. semi job. semi comfort. semi stability. semi something.

and with it comes semi worry, semi happiness, semi satisfaction, semi indulgence, semi hunt.

semi something

hiroki

complete, are we not?

taken in 2004.

fall in, all you female mafia.

here in singapore, we meet again.

little moments

have you ever caught yourself in a moment whereby you think to yourself "i like the way that i am feeling"

i feel that when i catch myself...
laughing when reading my manga;
singing;
drumming my feet or fingers to the rhythm of my music;
feeling inspired, enlightened;
taking a nice picture;
having a new idea;
watched a good show;
reminiscing fond memories;
thinking about random people;
imagining...

its the feeling of feeling happy being happy.

its not that i dont feel happy when i'm with others, but when u realize that you are happy even when spending time with yourself.. you feel that you are truly in peace and at ease with yourself and your life in general.

july

15th July (Tues) - manda's convo
19th July (Sat) - desserts party
27th July (Sunday) - family picture

commencement

my parents and grandma who sat through a 4 hour long ceremony, even though they don't understand much of what is said on said. jostled with the crowd to take pictures for/with me. the excitement in their voices, the smile on their faces that hinted of their pride. everything, just for me.

friends who cared enough to stick around, bake us a beautiful cake. you people on my left and right, not during the ceremony, but people who surround me and built me a wall of support.

no amount of paper nor qualification can touch nor shape your life nor hold as much value without them.

and last but not least, happy birthday jan! saranghae chingu!

congratulations and celebrations

congratulations to maggie, del and yieng on your graduation day!
and also to jan on your job!

may happiness and money be bestowed on you all... hahaha..

百万大歌星

yongbin, maggie, jfeng... remember this???

百万大歌星 is our absolutely 'favouritest' show (at least it my impression, it was!) even with so many channels on the taiwan tv network, we will definitely watch this if its on.

the nature of this gameshow is that the artiste contender will sing along to a song first with music and lyrics accompaniment. a few lines later, the music stops and the lyrics prompter goes off and the contender is supposed to complete the next line in the song.

watching the show is like having our own ktv & games time as we all guessed along with the contender. super fun! i miss those times & the show. now that i found it online, one more variety show added to my "online watch list"!

Here's a simple one, which we all guess correctly...

过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果 不能够永远走在一起
xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxx xxx
。。。。心动-林晓培

27 words. Fill in the x's! No prize for getting it right, all i can say is.. YOU ARE IN OUR LEAGUE!

23:56 - man, now i can't bear to sleep cause im watching it... the addiction all over again. deja vu!
xiao jing teng's - http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/sLFgL2yoEq0/
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/lzDGHx-pkZ8/

i am weak but he is strong

it has been a great weekend - energized and recharged from the good food, good company and an interesting service. went for the hokkien service on sunday with yb's mum and it was really different to hear preaching in another tonggue. in my mind, hokkien words were furiously being translated into english simultaneously. and when i have that scrunched up look of not understanding, yb's mom will explain to me in chinese. and singing "Jesus Loves Me This I Know" in hokkien, makes it seems like familiar yet new song which touched my heart anew.

over dinner last night, jfeng filled me in on the awards happenings. congratulations Gary for the well deserved win!

Gary Cao Ge, nominated for Best Male Mandarin Artist (Popular Music) for thesecond time, was selected as the recipient of the prestigious honor for the 19th Golden Melody Awards.

Newly "crowned" Best Male Mandarin Artist (Popular Music) Gary Cao received the award from the hands of Eason Chan YiXun, who had also been nominated for Best Male Mandarin Artist. In his acceptance speech, he thanked all of his supporting fans, his friends, and his family. He especially thanked his girlfriend for clearing up the rumors and speculations that he was,in fact, gay

.

yesyes, he's the man!! other deserving artistes includes Tanya (Best Female and Best Producer), SodaGreen (Best band) and Karen Mok (Best Album). I was rolling my eyes internally at jay chou's and fang wen shan's win at Qing Hua Ci (best song??) and of cos stupid jo-cannot-speak-english-lin and the rumour she is with Peng Yu Yan. NOOBLOODYWAY! pardon the media bitch in me talking. ok, have a great week all!

p/s: i just did a boo-boo. a phonecall came in and instinctively i picked up and happily went "good morning Fed.." then i caught my tongue and heard the "SHIT" running through my head. hahahhaa. talk about habit.

neverland

让我们谈一个不见面的恋爱
任凭想象，多了点自由和美满
每晚复习着一个背熟的脸庞
听他说出那没声音的对白

让我们谈个不承诺的恋爱
没了誓言，多了点今天和此刻的迷恋
当我需要你的时候你会出现
在我脑海发挥创意的那个空间

让我们谈一个不普通的恋爱
让我们谈一个不存在的恋爱
让我们谈一个不背叛的恋爱
让我们谈一个不厌倦的恋爱

让我们谈一个不朽的恋爱。

on food, music and travel

tried and tested!
Kim Dae Mun at Le Meridien Hotel - cheap and good korean food.

a good spicy korean fare always gives a warm, fuzzy, ahhhhhh feeling. just like the ramyun i had at Phnom Penh and the stew at Taipei 101. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..............

on another note, this morning as I was getting ready to go out - blowdrying my hair with my radio switched on.... Olivia Ong's Close to You started playing. What coincidence and it was on 9.33fm a chinese radio station no less. That song is my morning alarm, which woke us up for the 12 days we spent in taiwan. listening to it every morning whenever the alarm rings still brings back memory of Taiwan even though there's also a big part of me groaning at the need to wake up at 6.30am to get to work.

Listening to Olivia ong's 'Close to you' (kope from eunice handphone) and it reminded me of the alarm we had in Taiwan. First night in Taiwanmex, we had to wake up 5 am in the morning, and this was the first song i heard. From than on, it kept coming back into my head in the mornings to come.
....yongbin

i suppose that's the beauty of our 5 senses - capturing memories and bringing a sense of familiarity and nostalgia in sights, taste, sounds, smell and touch.

TGIF

Thank God It's Fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

agenda: sleep, getwell, pig out, hangout.

refuge!

excused myself from work an hour earlier to escape home and sleep off my throbbing head and feverish body.

the thing about working is that it makes u cherish home time and the time spent hanging out with friends more. but the weekends seem too short especially when commencement is coming up. its a tedious affair - collect gown, the ceremony itself, photoshoot. the only picture is my mind now is me hidden among the many other graduates. DEGREE SO WHAT?

let me escape back to my duvet.

i

my ignorance has made you perfect.

Anata no ouchi wa dokodesuka?

Japanese Nursery Rhyme

Maigo no
Maigo no
Koneko-chan
Anata no ouchi wa dokodesuka?
Ouchi o kitemo wakaranai
Namae o kite wakaranai
Meow meow meow meow
Meow meow meow meow
Naite bakari iru koneko-chan
Inu-no omawari-san
Konatte shimatte
Woof woof woof woof
Woof woof woof woof

a kitten was lost. it didn't know where her home was nor remembered its name. then it met a police dog but alas, he was lost too.

lost, arent we all?