Wednesday, January 03, 2007

eternal sunshine

im sure most would have read stories about how being happy or being sad is a choice, and whether a glass is half full or half empty is up to you. when we were younger, we didnt have to deal with our feelings. we only knew how to express them, we didnt have to curb them. i didnt have to tell myself it is a happy day or it was a sad day. i just went through the motion. maybe as we began to decipher what is happiness and what is not, things started to get complicated. maybe in our minds we grouped them up in their individual circles, but during our childhood, we stayed in the overlapping portion of this venn diagram.

i began to be conscious of people who are too overtly... upset and never seem to be contented. is it natural to feel this way? i don't know. but it does gets a little bit scary at times. what if they are really never happy? 10 years down the road, 20, 30 and still never happy. even in their smiles, there are shadows of sadness and something ticking at the back of their minds and hearts. like how they think happiness is just a fleeting facade, and what lies within are made of darker stuff.

scary.

i didnt even finish watching American Beauty. but everything portrayed is so dyfuctional that i think it is screwin up my mind.

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